*12.08 am* a Sunday just passed by
The last few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster. I went from questioning my life (& career) choices to being infected by Dengue. I went from burning with fever & recovering from it to being upset at work & taking some practical decisions. All of it has put me through an unnecessary and unexpected mental trouble & it’s going to take quite a long for me to recover.
I was facing a serious existential crisis and had started questioning everything about life. Like why did I take up another corporate job after the disaster that my ex-job was? Or why did I not get into creative writing – which is what I had come all the way to Mumbai for in the first place. Or should I have just gone back home and taken time to figure out what I wanted to do next? All these questions started haunting me day and night and the purpose of my existence became so unclear. I was stuck, speechless and unmovable.
I also took a harsh but practical decision involving a friend and as much as it infuriates me, I had no choice. It was a reality check in a huge way. I have never felt so helpless and heartbroken ever before. But I guess I’ll have to live with it and just focus on better things.
After dwelling on these issues for a few nights, I finally got up and decided to take charge by resolving one thing at a time. I had to get my life back together. First, I called my parents and spoke to them about everything. That conversation really helped me gain a perspective. Then, I looked up for courses that will redirect my career on the path I want it to take. And then I wrote this blog. It made the hurricane inside my mind much calmer than before. So that’s it for today. An incomplete and random update written for myself. Hmph!